The behaviour pattern that took place with Gone Girl was eerily similar to the most recent time I ate 100 cookies. I didn't WANT to read most of the book in one sitting. I knew I'd feel better if I saved it and enjoyed it slowly. There were other things I would have liked to have been doing with that time. And yet, I just couldn't stop myself. I felt guilty. I told myself I deserved to do it because it was holiday time. Once I got within a centimetre of the end I figured I might as well finish it off and then it would be done. My rational brain shut right down and something else took over.
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the scene where she's watching the talk show with her
I've known for a while that I just shouldn't bring page-turner novels into my home. I cannot control myself with them. The same goes for some foods, although these have changed as my mindful eating practice evolves. Large high quality dark chocolate bar? No problem - sits in my cupboard for weeks as I enjoy the occasional nibble when the mood strikes. Bag of maple-bacon flavoured popcorn? Forget it - must devour whole bag. In mindful eating, we recognize what these trigger foods (or "food-like items") are and we choose not to have them around because we know their pull on us is more powerful than our mindful eating practice.
I thought my mindful eating practice was progressing nicely, but something in Gone Girl triggered an alarming realization. No, not that I'm deranged and manipulative. In the novel one of the main characters (we can't call them protagonists) says his wife is always thinking, thinking, thinking - her brain is constantly churning. That's me.
I thought one of my biggest mindful eating achievements was my new habit of NOT multi-tasking when I eat alone. I used to always read while eating, but through mindful eating learned that I should just sit and enjoy my food. I thought I was doing that and I was proud of myself. Alas, I'm often just as "gone" when I'm eating as I used to be. Instead of reading, I'm thinking, thinking, thinking. I'm so lost in my thoughts I'm not present in the room with the food I'm eating - I'm eating mindlessly.
The excellent thing about mindful eating is once you're aware of something, you have the power to change it. Not like the characters in Gone Girl...they know they've got problems, and they choose to stay mired in them. Fine for a cheap novel, but not for a real life.